Helplessness =(




Ontem parecia um dia tão trivial como qualquer outro...
Hoje até mesmo a escrever tudo me custa a pôr em palavras.
Tudo o que aconteceu não pára de fluir pelos meus pensamentos.
Fiz uma das piores escolhas que se pode fazer na vida.
Apesar das consequências não serem drásticas, podia ter lugar um fim diferente e se caso tivesse acontecido...quem seria culpado? talvez eu....talvez ninguém. A culpa em mim, recai sim na merda de decisão que tomei.
O que sou eu?? Quem sou eu? Porque princípios me guio para tal julgamento? ='(

Ontem um amigo quase se afogou à minha frente e apesar de me ter apressado a socorre-lo e a agarrar nele, não tive força, e apesar da calma reinar em mim não chegou para o acalmar...e apesar de muita luta chega sempre o momento em que nos apercebemos que temos de escolher...
Fiz o que me pareceu mais certo, e depois restou-me ver o resultado enquanto me debatia comigo próprio mergulhado na culpa e na vergonha.
Ainda não sou capaz de o olhar nos olhos.
Apesar de todos me dizerem que fiz tudo o que podia e que me portei de forma exemplar...apesar de me demonstrarem admiração pela minha coragem e lealdade...sinto-me um cobarde...

Desculpem...

Indefinidamente

Nunca serei velho demais pa ir no carro com o Billy a berrar isto...



XD
Obrigado maluco, por me fazeres rir com merdas que não lembram a ninguém e quando eu mais preciso...parece que adivinhas c****...joga no euromilhões!! Já te disse. =P @

Esta é que é a grande verdade da vida =D

Silence 4 - My Friends

I was so lost in my pain, fear was melting my brain,
I was counting the days to insanity, I was afraid to move myself
Afraid to hurt myself, more than I had until that day
Everything I believed in, everything I fought for
Was now underneath my feet and my heart beat
Was so gone, couldn't be felt by anyone
So alone it gave me the creeps
My drugs got me in bed went up to my head And I really don't wanna depend
So I'll stick to

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my cards and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again

Never thought woyuld be like this
No one told me it would be like this
I'm amazed I'm amazed with myself
And my brain and my pain
And my pain and my veins
Are delivering it to my health
My self-confidence was broken while my trust was taken
And it left me with an empty life and this knife
Rests on the middle of me bed, I think in all the things she said
Close my eyes and sleep
All these drugs in my head, it seems I'm already dead
And I really don't want to depend
So I'll stick to ...

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my cards and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again

Can't smoke anymore can't drink anynmore, still I do it, I do it again
Lost everything I had, Far from mum, far from dad
I thank God for my good, good friends
But where's this God that I mention? Where is He right now?
As I die as slowly as I can? All my plans, went down the hole
My life has no goal, and I wonder if this is worth it
But my friends took my hand
Helped me to lift myself again
And that's why I really love

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my cards and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again


Dedicada ao Billy, Rodinhas, Simão, Casaca, Flávio, etc... =P

Breaking Point

Uma letra que andou no caderno dum certo alguém durante 1 ano a ganhar pó, completamente esquecida, vá-se lá saber hoje lembrei-me e decidi escrever os 2 ou 3 versos que faltavam e mesmo assim ainda está incompleta...mas assim vai ficar ^^


You tried to tell me
how to go on without you
but you don't know
all the things that i've been through
You tried to act like you care
and kept calling me dear
but even when i'm not there
you won't shed a tear...(and i say)

Stop!!
Showed me something you're not
Crushed me just like a train
I can't handle the pain...(so)

Stop!!
All your kisses and smiles
AIN'T NOTHING BUT LIES!
Said that you loved me
Wha' kinda fool do you see?...(i thought)

We were the same
laugh about everything
walking in the rain...
And we would just,
work it all out,
instead of walking away
you just hit me and shout...

[e volta po refrão]


PS - Não me sinto assim neste momento apenas me apeteceu acabar algo que comecei...aah e também foi a primeira letra que fiz sem ajuda de ninguém portanto ahah =D tinha de a pôr aqui por ser tão pessoal. Hope you like it please comment. ^^ Cumps

Love, Hate, Love



I tried to love you I thought I could
I tried to own you I thought I would
I want to peel the skin from your face
Before the real you lays to waste

You told me I'm the only one
Sweet little angel you should have run
Lying, crying, dying to leave
little slut creates my hell

Cheating myself still you know more
It would be so easy with a whore
Try to understand me little girl
My twisted passion to be your world

Lost inside my sick head
I live for you but I'm not alive
Take my hand before I kill
I still love you, but, I still burn

Yeah, Love, hate, love (3x)
Oooh, Love, hate, love
Yeah, Love, hate, love

Subterfuge




Everyone loses something in their life...
Everyone knows what is like being played for a fool...
Everyone knows what it feels when your dreams are crushed...
Everyone thinks, even for once, there's no coming back...

Everyone has this place of their own, wether it's real or not, where they can run to...where they can hide...
People go there because they don't feel safe walking in this world anymore, feel they don't belong...they just want to disappear without leaving a trace.
Some stay home, in their bed, in the closet...the more silent the better...
Others stand right in the middle of confusion...where no one knows them...because that's being alone too...

...but in general people do that when they are weak, broken and trying to get a hold on life.

I'm no exception...however...when i go there it's because i'm stronger, i go there when i already healed myself...because my place doesn't deserve to have my weakness...because it's majesty is simply glorifying! =')
It's a place with no begining and no end...where things get washed away...and it's sounds are the best silence you can get ^^

Quebra a rotina...




"Circle Of Fear"


Heartache is knocking on her door
Shadows dance outside her window
Tears keep falling on the floor
As the world around her crumbles

If you want to save her
First you have to save yourself
If you want to free her from the hurt
Don't do it with your pain
If you want to see her smile again
Don't show her you're afraid
Because your circle of fear is the same

Love can be as cold as grave
A one-way ticket to endless sorrow
An empire of gentle hate
Today without tomorrow

It's the circle of regret
The circle of hate
The circle of death
Your circle of fear is the same